On this day, twenty-one years ago, my dear friend Sarah entered the world (yes, she and Hannah are twins) and it hasn't been the same since!
Sarah, I treasure our friendship. You have been a blessing to me since the moment we met and a true Godsend, especially in this season. I think I would have gone crazy by now if it wasn't for your prayers, listening ear, and words of truth and love. And, as I noted in Hannah's post, I truly am forever grateful to you two for introducing me to Harvest and helping me become part of the group.
Thanks for encouraging me to branch out and be a little crazy sometimes. There are definitely times in my life where I need friends to tell me to let go of whatever is going on in my life, let loose and have a little fun. And thanks for being there to have fun with! I love you dearly and I hope you have an incredibly blessed day that is far better than you could have imagined.
Life from the perspective of a young journalist perfectly saved by God's grace
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Happy Birthday, Hannah!
On this day, twenty-one years ago, my dear friend Hannah entered the world, changing it for the better.
Hannah, I am so glad God brought us together. I treasure our friendship. I'm forever grateful to you and Sarah for introducing me to the CCA and thereby introducing me to Harvest Church. You have been such a blessing to me. Your calm, mature manner mixed with your bold, strong stand for the Lord and your family have been a blessing in my life and an inspiration to me. Thank you for always being there when I need prayer, a listening ear, or words of truth and encouragement. I love you dearly and I look forward to our friendship growing even closer as the years go by! I hope you have an absolutely awesome birthday!
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Shakin' up Judge Judy
Okay, so while it isn't funny that southern California was rocked by an earthquake yesterday, the effect it had on this taping of Judge Judy is rather humorous.
Actions speak louder than words
As I was reading 1 John 3 last night, verse 18 reminded me once again of the importance of making sure that what we do backs up what we say.
There are a myriad of Scripture verses and quotes that I could support this with, but there really is something to the old saying, "Actions speak louder than words."
What good are our words if our actions don't reflect the same ideas? They are absolutely empty and worthless.
Throughout the Bible, and repeatedly in the books John wrote, we are told that if we truly believe in God, if we really mean what we say when we claim to be followers of Christ, we'll love one another. Which means loving everyone with the love of Christ. I try, but wow, I fall so short. God, help me to love as you love.
And I think it's interesting that John points out the need for us to love in truth. False affection doesn't work. Nobody likes to be loved insincerely. People usually aren't fooled for long (if at all) when someone puts on a loving facade.
Sometimes loving with the truth hurts; the old "tough love" situation. And honestly, I think there needs to be a lot more tough-love truth dished out today than there is. Especially as believers, if we see our friends, especially our brothers and sisters in Christ, in trouble or slipping away, we have an obligation to be bold enough to say something, even at the risk of the person's anger or the loss of the relationship. If we just stand by and watch, then we are only contributing to their fall. Scary thought. To any of my friends reading this, please don't ever hesitate to speak the truth to me in love! If I'm off track somewhere I want to know.
James brings up an interesting concept as well when he discusses faith in chapter 2.
Faith without action is nothing. Actions really do reflect what's truly in the heart and the mind.
Wow. If I'm really trying to live a life of faith, my actions should back up what I claim to have faith in. If I believe that God is who he says he is, then every part of my life, which includes my words and my actions, should reflect that. Our actions prove our true feelings, no matter what we may say.
I could keep going with this topic, but I'll stop for right now. This post is long enough. ;) There are so many different directions this discussion could go in that I might come back to it at a later date.
"Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth."
There are a myriad of Scripture verses and quotes that I could support this with, but there really is something to the old saying, "Actions speak louder than words."
What good are our words if our actions don't reflect the same ideas? They are absolutely empty and worthless.
Throughout the Bible, and repeatedly in the books John wrote, we are told that if we truly believe in God, if we really mean what we say when we claim to be followers of Christ, we'll love one another. Which means loving everyone with the love of Christ. I try, but wow, I fall so short. God, help me to love as you love.
And I think it's interesting that John points out the need for us to love in truth. False affection doesn't work. Nobody likes to be loved insincerely. People usually aren't fooled for long (if at all) when someone puts on a loving facade.
Sometimes loving with the truth hurts; the old "tough love" situation. And honestly, I think there needs to be a lot more tough-love truth dished out today than there is. Especially as believers, if we see our friends, especially our brothers and sisters in Christ, in trouble or slipping away, we have an obligation to be bold enough to say something, even at the risk of the person's anger or the loss of the relationship. If we just stand by and watch, then we are only contributing to their fall. Scary thought. To any of my friends reading this, please don't ever hesitate to speak the truth to me in love! If I'm off track somewhere I want to know.
James brings up an interesting concept as well when he discusses faith in chapter 2.
"What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him? Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to him, "Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed," but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.
But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds."
Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do.
You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.
You foolish man, do you want evidence that faith without deeds is useless? Was not our ancestor Abraham considered righteous for what he did when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? You see that his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did. And the scripture was fulfilled that says, "Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness,"and he was called God's friend. You see that a person is justified by what he does and not by faith alone.
In the same way, was not even Rahab the prostitute considered righteous for what she did when she gave lodging to the spies and sent them off in a different direction? As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead."
- James 2:14-26
Faith without action is nothing. Actions really do reflect what's truly in the heart and the mind.
Wow. If I'm really trying to live a life of faith, my actions should back up what I claim to have faith in. If I believe that God is who he says he is, then every part of my life, which includes my words and my actions, should reflect that. Our actions prove our true feelings, no matter what we may say.
I could keep going with this topic, but I'll stop for right now. This post is long enough. ;) There are so many different directions this discussion could go in that I might come back to it at a later date.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Happy Birthday, Katherine!
On this day, twenty-one years ago, my dear friend Katherine entered the world and blessed it with her presence.
Katherine, I consider myself privileged to call you one of my best friends. Your sweet, loving spirit and heart for God shine through in everything that you do and you are truly a blessing to everyone who knows you. I am so glad God allowed our paths to cross. I treasure our friendship and look forward to growing even closer in the years to come! I love you and I hope you have a truly blessed, God-kissed day.
Happy 21st Birthday!
Katherine, I consider myself privileged to call you one of my best friends. Your sweet, loving spirit and heart for God shine through in everything that you do and you are truly a blessing to everyone who knows you. I am so glad God allowed our paths to cross. I treasure our friendship and look forward to growing even closer in the years to come! I love you and I hope you have a truly blessed, God-kissed day.
Happy 21st Birthday!
Monday, July 28, 2008
During my quiet time today....
Here are some key thoughts from my quiet time with the Lord today.
The cry of my heart...
Lately, at the suggestion of a respected guest speaker at our church, I have been spending a good bit of time in John 14-16. My desire is to abide in Christ every moment of every day, so I've paid particular attentions to verses such as John 15:4-11:
Today, the Lord led me to 1 John, and I caught some parallels in 1 John 2 and John 15. Namely, it reinforces the idea of abiding in Christ and the importance of God's Word and obeying his commands as a vital part of abiding.
Abiding in Christ is obviously closely intertwined with obeying God and being avid students of his Word.
Lord, may I hunger and thirst to spend time in your Word and obey what it says. May your Word become such a part of my life that it is hidden away deep inside my heart, a vital part of who I am. May each moment I spend in your Word provide new revelation and insight and only serve to draw me closer to You. And may I obey your Word and your commands immediately and eagerly out of my love for you, not reluctantly or out of compulsion. In Jesus' name, AMEN.
The cry of my heart...
"Lord, I bow before you this day and declare that you are Lord over every area of my life. I surrender myself and my life to You and invite You to rule in every part of my mind, soul, body, and spirit. I love You with all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my mind. I commit to trusting You with my whole being. I declare You to be Lord over every area of my life today and every day.
Enable me to deny myself in order to take up my cross daily and follow you (Luke 9:23). I want to be Your disciple just as You have said in Your Word (Luke 14:27). Help me to do what it takes. I want to lose my life in You so I can save it (Luke 9:24). Teach me what that means. Speak to me so that I may understand.
Help me to say yes to You immediately when You give me direction for my life. My desire is to please You and hold nothing back. I surrender my relationships, my finances, my work, my recreation, my decisions, my time, my body, my mind, my soul, my desires, and my dreams. I put them all in Your hands so they can be used for Your glory. I declare this day that 'I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me' (Galatians 2:20). Rule me in every area of my life, Lord, and lead me into all that You have for me."
- Stormie Omartian, The Power of a Praying Woman
Lately, at the suggestion of a respected guest speaker at our church, I have been spending a good bit of time in John 14-16. My desire is to abide in Christ every moment of every day, so I've paid particular attentions to verses such as John 15:4-11:
"Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples. As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete."
Today, the Lord led me to 1 John, and I caught some parallels in 1 John 2 and John 15. Namely, it reinforces the idea of abiding in Christ and the importance of God's Word and obeying his commands as a vital part of abiding.
"We know that we have come to know him if we obey his commands. The man who says, 'I know him,' but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in him. But if anyone obeys his word, God's love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him: Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did."
1 John 2:3-6
"See that what you have heard from the beginning remains in you. If it does, you also will remain in the Son and in the Father."
1 John 2:24
"As for you, the anointing you received from him remains in you, and you do not need anyone to teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about all things and as that anointing is real, not counterfeit--just as it has taught you, remain in him."
1 John 2:27
Abiding in Christ is obviously closely intertwined with obeying God and being avid students of his Word.
Lord, may I hunger and thirst to spend time in your Word and obey what it says. May your Word become such a part of my life that it is hidden away deep inside my heart, a vital part of who I am. May each moment I spend in your Word provide new revelation and insight and only serve to draw me closer to You. And may I obey your Word and your commands immediately and eagerly out of my love for you, not reluctantly or out of compulsion. In Jesus' name, AMEN.
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Friday, July 25, 2008
A thought for today
Nothing is more needful at this present hour than prayer that draws its power from full operation under the direction and unction of the Holy Spirit.
-Frances Roberts, Come Away My Beloved
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Thursday, July 24, 2008
25 things that make me smile
You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
Psalm 16:11
Joy. Not only is joy a fruit of the Spirit that should be evident in our lives, the joy of the Lord is our strength. And often, in my own life, I find that one of the more effective tools of the enemy against me has been an attempt to steal my joy.
Several weeks ago, after a few weeks of riding an emotional rollercoaster ride and going up in down in my moods, I finally grasped the concept that sometimes living in the joy of the Lord is a conscious decision. I have to chose to be filled with joy, even on the days when I don't feel like it. Even if it means I wake up and say to myself, "I will have a good day today if it kills me! I will choose to be happy and delight in the Lord."
One great tool for bringing joy into one's day is remembering all of the many great things God has done and is doing for us. "For you make me glad by your deeds, O Lord; I sing for joy at the works of your hands." Psalm 92:4
So one days when I wake up feeling unjoyful, I have learned to ask God to fill me with his joy and I try to take a moment to remember some of the many things God has done for me--which brings me to reason for the "25 things that make me smile" title.
The other night I decided to sit down and make a list of things that make me smile/happy and bring joy to my life. And really, I think it's something I should do more often. How can you continue to feel down when you're staring at a long list of things that bring you joy? I started out with the goal of listing 25 things but soon ended up with 50. I thought I would share some of these things with you. Although I made a list of 50+ things, I decided to spare you all the trouble of reading all that and shorten my list to 25 for the blog. So...here are 25 things that make me smile, in no particular order.
- the presence of the Lord
- my family
- my friends (the best ever!)
- my Harvest family
- a beautiful sunset
- mint chocolate
- a clear, sunny 60-70 degree day with just a slight breeze
- coffee
- seeing something I wrote published
- a friend's smile
- the feeling of accomplishment that comes from a productive day
- reading a good book
- finding a really good deal when shopping
- the wonderful aroma that greets you when you walk into a Starbucks
- learning something new and fascinating
- Christmas music
- baking and sharing my baked goods with others :)
- the sound of a loved one's voice
- encouraging words
- seeing the night crew (the people I work with most closely) excel at work
- conversations with God
- the color purple
- talking with friends about what God has been doing in our lives
- seeing redbud trees in full bloom
- fresh-out-of-the-oven chocolate chip cookies
Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior.
Habakkuk 3:17-19
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Changes at WBIR
Big changes are in the works at WBIR. Read more about the new plans here. The new ideas sound like a bold move, but I think WBIR is certainly capable of pulling it off. It should be interesting to see how the new programming works out.
Not to worry
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me."
John 14:1
"If you love me, you will obey what I command."
John 14:15
Over and over throughout Scripture, we are commanded not to worry. We are told to simply trust God, not worry about what tomorrow may bring, and not be afraid.
This is one of the many things God has been speaking to my heart over the past few months. Basically, if I'm truly living a life sold out to God, I shouldn't be worrying about anything. Period. God promises he will take care of us, so I should take him at his Word and not sweat it. I have to trust, even when I can't see.
When I worry, not only am I calling God a liar (because he promises to meet our needs), but I'm disobeying his command to not worry. And, if I'm worrying about something, it's a pretty good indicator I am trying to have some degree of control over the situation, instead of leaving my life surrendered in God's hands. Worrying is also kind of pointless: "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" (Matthew 6:27). So true, yet so easy to forget in the moment.
Basically, when I worry, I'm just messing up left and right.
This isn't an easy lesson to learn and I know I'll never completely grasp it, no matter how hard I try. But nevertheless, I am going to try my best to live my entire life in this way. I do love the Lord, so I want to obey his Word. Which means no worrying. No matter how tempting it may be.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Tree collapses in South Knoxville
During yesterday's crazy storms, a huge tree collapsed near a home in South Knoxville. You have to watch this video on the incident. The sound bites are absolutely priceless. I dare you to watch it without laughing...
Farewell, Jason
Jason Dane Hovater
August 10, 1983 - July 13, 2008
Last Sunday our country lost one of its best.
Army Weapons Specialist Jason Hovater was killed in action in Afghanistan early Sunday morning, July 13, 2008. His body was laid to rest today with full military honors in the Tennessee Military Cemetery in Knoxville.
Some of the soldiers with him said he died trying to save his friends. Apparently he was in a safe location, saw three of his friends in a dangerous spot, grabbed his gear and went to help them, sacrificing his life in the process. Jason is truly a hero.
This hits close to home for me. This isn't simply another East Tennessee soldier killed in action (and each soldier lost is a great loss). Jason was a soldier with a passionate love for the Lord and a personal acquaintance of mine. I went to church with Jason at New Covenant Fellowship for about three years. While we weren't close friends, I still knew him and have been truly saddened and touched by his passing. I still can't fully wrap my mind around the fact that he's gone.
And I can attest that everything I've heard about Jason in the various reports and tributes following his death is true. Jason loved the Lord, he loved Jenna, he loved his family, he loved music and worshipping the Lord, he loved his country, he loved to laugh and make others laugh, he flat out loved life. And he was full of life. I think that's one of the things that seems so hard about his death. One can't help but ask, "Why?" He was so full of life and had so much going for him. The only answer to that is simply to trust that God has his reasons. He is worshipping in the very presence of the Lord at this very moment. I firmly believe that.
As a news intern at WBIR, I was able to help behind-the-scenes in the initial story we did on Jason's death. While it was sad and sometimes difficult to work on a story on Jason's death, it was also a privilege to be able to help show people who Jason was and help them see that Jason wasn't just another Army number. It was our hope that our story would show people the real Jason. It was and is my prayer that God will be glorified through Jason's life and death.
Here are some links to learn more about Jason and his story:
"East Tennessee soldier's body returns home"
"Friends and family say goodbye to soldier killed in Afghanistan"
"Hundreds gather to lay to final rest fallen Lake City soldier"
"East Tennessee soldier killed in Afghanistan laid to rest"
I also want to encourage people to watch this interview with Jason's wife, Jenna. I thought Jenna did an absolutely outstanding job with the interview. I am so proud of her. I can't even begin to imagine the pain she is going through right now, but she's standing strong and clinging to God to help get her through. My prayers are definitely with her and Jason's entire family.
Farewell, Jason. You are a hero. Although it seems to us that your life was cut short way too soon, you made a difference here and you will be greatly missed. I will see you again someday.
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Saturday, July 12, 2008
For the love of rain
I'd never been a big fan of rain...until recently. I've always preferred the sunshine. Last year's drought has given me an entirely new appreciation for rain. As the earth became incredibly dry last summer, I found myself welcoming any forecast of rain and enjoying it when it came. When we were nearly 14 inches below normal rainfall last year, I would have welcomed a particularly rainy year for 2008 in order to help repair some of the damage from the drought. This year's below average rainfall has only increased my joy at seeing rain. I guess there is some truth to the old adage, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder."
I now love to watch the rain fall. Even if it means that I have to walk around campus in it or rearrange outdoor plans. So what if I have to get a little wet or be a little flexible? At least the earth is getting some of the nourishment it needs.
So while I still love sunshiney days, I don't mind if there's a rainy one mixed in every once in a while. ;) It takes the sunny days and the rainy ones to achieve the balance needed for things to grow.
And really that could apply to life itself. It takes the seasons of joy and "sunshine"--the good times--and the times of gray skies, rain and storms--often the not-so-good times--to help shape us into the people God desires us to be. And just as we should learn to appreciate both sunshine and rain here on the earth, we should learn to welcome the good and the hard times in our walks with Christ and not let anything steal our joy. We should praise Him at all times and in all circumstances.
I now love to watch the rain fall. Even if it means that I have to walk around campus in it or rearrange outdoor plans. So what if I have to get a little wet or be a little flexible? At least the earth is getting some of the nourishment it needs.
So while I still love sunshiney days, I don't mind if there's a rainy one mixed in every once in a while. ;) It takes the sunny days and the rainy ones to achieve the balance needed for things to grow.
And really that could apply to life itself. It takes the seasons of joy and "sunshine"--the good times--and the times of gray skies, rain and storms--often the not-so-good times--to help shape us into the people God desires us to be. And just as we should learn to appreciate both sunshine and rain here on the earth, we should learn to welcome the good and the hard times in our walks with Christ and not let anything steal our joy. We should praise Him at all times and in all circumstances.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
In a writing mood
So why am I suddenly publishing three new blog posts in one day after weeks of silence? I'm in a writing mood. I can't even put my finger on what I want to write--I'm just itching to put my fingers to the keyboard or pen to paper. I like blogging, so hopefully I'll get back in the habit of frequent blogging and really put my page to use. My mind is quickly coming up with new ideas for blog posts, so hopefully I'll actually have the time to turn those ideas into posts when inspiration hits. Any suggestions on what I should write?
Music on my blog!
I've finally figured out how to add music to my blog! Not only will the music actually play while you're reading the material on my page, but it will play the entire song! Definitely a step up from the little iLike song snippets on Facebook! I chose some of my favorite quieter songs to provide a more soothing background. As most of you know, I love a good loud and upbeat tune, but I figured that might be a little bit of a jolt when you first arrive at my page. ;) So...I hope you enjoy the music while you're reading!
Surrender
Surrender.
The word itself sounds simple enough. Yet its meaning packs a powerful punch.
According to the American Heritage College Dictionary, surrender means:
Verb:
1) To relinquish possession or control of to another because of demand or
compulsion
2) To give up in favor of another
3) To give up or give back (something granted)
4) To give up or abandon
5) To give over or resign (oneself) to something, as to an emotion
6) Law To restore (an estate, for example), especially to give up (a lease)
before expiration of the term
Not an easy task.
As a follower of Christ, surrender must not simply be part of my vocabulary, it should be an active part of my life. My life is not my own, it was bought at a price (1 Corinthians 6: 19-20). My daily activities should reflect that.
In the above definitions, the act of surrender is a one time deal. For example, if two armies are fighting in a war and one surrenders, the war is over. Finished. The general of the surrendering army does not have to come back the next day and say, “Hey, we surrender again.”
However, for the Christian, surrender is not just a one-time experience. It must be a daily thing. So often, as Christians, we fall into the trap of living in past events. Sure, one may have surrendered every particle of his or her life—all their hopes and dreams, everything—to God years ago at church camp or at a church meeting, but does that still play an active role in his or her life today? Yes and no. Yes, it was a valid experience with God and one can wholeheartedly surrender everything to Him in that moment, and I’m not discounting that in any way. Been there, done that. But how many times since that moment have I re-seized control of my life? And how many new dreams and desires do I have that need to be surrendered? Or what about something as deceptively simple as the agenda I have for my day? The answer is yes, I have plenty of new dreams, plans and agendas to surrender, and unfortunately, I have taken back control of my life countless times, more than I care to remember. Surrender is not a one-time event.
Daily surrender is definitely Biblical. It is a form of dying to self. And this isn’t just about dying to the hopes and dreams we hold closely in our hearts. What about our time? Are we willing to surrender our day to the Lord and let him structure it for us? Heaven forbid we have to be inconvenienced and set aside some of our plans for the day because God has something else in mind. And what about dying to the fear of man and being a bold witness for Christ? Often, that can factor into our time as well. Are we willing to stop in the midst of what we’re doing to share the truth with someone, regardless of where we are and who might be listening/watching?
Jesus discusses this in Luke when he says:
I also liked the way these verses are worded in the Message translation:
In the same way that one should make sure his or her spiritual armor is in place or be filled afresh with the Holy Spirit, one has to die to self and surrender to God on a daily basis.
Paul urges us in Romans to offer ourselves as “living sacrifices” to God:
Once again, I love the Message translation as well:
This also brings up a good point. It takes God’s help for us to completely surrender to him. We have to make a conscious decision to do it—but God meets us at that place. When we humble ourselves and let him take control, he gladly helps us to follow his lead. God wants all of us, every day.
The many synonyms for “surrender” listed on thesaurus.com also raise some interesting points. Some of the synonyms include: abandon, comply, resign, concede, relinquish, submit, vacate, waive, yield, abdicate, give over, give up, lay down. Almost all of these involve, to some extent, the giving up of one’s rights, which is exactly what God wants from us. When we surrender our lives to him—at salvation and every day—we are declaring that we have given up our rights to live our own lives. Yes, we certainly have rights as sons and daughters of God—but we relinquish our “right” to control our own lives and live them for ourselves.
I am preaching this to myself probably more than anyone else who might read this. God has really been working with me on this over the past week and a half, thus the inspiration to write. ;) He started the process by asking me to let go of the tight hold I had on the hopes and dreams buried deep inside my heart, and then challenged me to be willing to surrender my time and reputation—everything—for Him, every day. God has also really been stretching me in the area of waiting for Him. Just because he plants desires in my heart and gives me a tiny glimpse of what He has planned for the future, does not mean that the future is now. And I can’t—and shouldn’t try to—box God in and try to tell Him how He needs to work in my life.
I can be a bit of a control freak at times, so this is often difficult for me (and I’m not using my personality as an excuse—far from it). I have often found myself .tricked into believing I am completely surrendered to Christ, only to find myself clinging tightly to small areas of my heart that I don’t want to relinquish control over. Typically, the control is motivated by fear. I’m afraid of what might happen if I release control. In reality, that’s ridiculous. Even in my short twenty-one years on this earth, I’ve already learned time and time again that God definitely knows better than I do how to run my life. Left on my own, I only mess things up. But God, in his grace, can take my messed-up life and do something beautiful with it, in it, and through it.
God has particularly been working with me on the day-to-day act of surrender. I’ve discovered that daily surrender is a very conscious decision. At least in my own life, it simply hasn’t been enough to just say that I’m surrendered to God and not deliberately re-surrender myself to him everyday. If I don’t, I find myself unconsciously taking back control. So for the past week and a half, each day has involved an act of surrender. Goodness knows I don’t have it down yet, but with God’s help, I’m working on it. And I’ve found that although surrendering is a difficult and often scary process, the rewards far outweigh the pain. I’m never as at peace as I am when I’m surrendered to God. I want my life to be fully surrendered to Him at all times and in every way.
The word itself sounds simple enough. Yet its meaning packs a powerful punch.
According to the American Heritage College Dictionary, surrender means:
Verb:
1) To relinquish possession or control of to another because of demand or
compulsion
2) To give up in favor of another
3) To give up or give back (something granted)
4) To give up or abandon
5) To give over or resign (oneself) to something, as to an emotion
6) Law To restore (an estate, for example), especially to give up (a lease)
before expiration of the term
Not an easy task.
As a follower of Christ, surrender must not simply be part of my vocabulary, it should be an active part of my life. My life is not my own, it was bought at a price (1 Corinthians 6: 19-20). My daily activities should reflect that.
In the above definitions, the act of surrender is a one time deal. For example, if two armies are fighting in a war and one surrenders, the war is over. Finished. The general of the surrendering army does not have to come back the next day and say, “Hey, we surrender again.”
However, for the Christian, surrender is not just a one-time experience. It must be a daily thing. So often, as Christians, we fall into the trap of living in past events. Sure, one may have surrendered every particle of his or her life—all their hopes and dreams, everything—to God years ago at church camp or at a church meeting, but does that still play an active role in his or her life today? Yes and no. Yes, it was a valid experience with God and one can wholeheartedly surrender everything to Him in that moment, and I’m not discounting that in any way. Been there, done that. But how many times since that moment have I re-seized control of my life? And how many new dreams and desires do I have that need to be surrendered? Or what about something as deceptively simple as the agenda I have for my day? The answer is yes, I have plenty of new dreams, plans and agendas to surrender, and unfortunately, I have taken back control of my life countless times, more than I care to remember. Surrender is not a one-time event.
Daily surrender is definitely Biblical. It is a form of dying to self. And this isn’t just about dying to the hopes and dreams we hold closely in our hearts. What about our time? Are we willing to surrender our day to the Lord and let him structure it for us? Heaven forbid we have to be inconvenienced and set aside some of our plans for the day because God has something else in mind. And what about dying to the fear of man and being a bold witness for Christ? Often, that can factor into our time as well. Are we willing to stop in the midst of what we’re doing to share the truth with someone, regardless of where we are and who might be listening/watching?
Jesus discusses this in Luke when he says:
Then he said to them all: ‘If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it.
- Luke 9:23-24 NIV
I also liked the way these verses are worded in the Message translation:
Then he told them what they could expect for themselves: ‘Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You’re not in the driver’s seat—I am. Don’t run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I’ll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you?
In the same way that one should make sure his or her spiritual armor is in place or be filled afresh with the Holy Spirit, one has to die to self and surrender to God on a daily basis.
Paul urges us in Romans to offer ourselves as “living sacrifices” to God:
Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship.
- Romans 12:1
Once again, I love the Message translation as well:
So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him.
This also brings up a good point. It takes God’s help for us to completely surrender to him. We have to make a conscious decision to do it—but God meets us at that place. When we humble ourselves and let him take control, he gladly helps us to follow his lead. God wants all of us, every day.
The many synonyms for “surrender” listed on thesaurus.com also raise some interesting points. Some of the synonyms include: abandon, comply, resign, concede, relinquish, submit, vacate, waive, yield, abdicate, give over, give up, lay down. Almost all of these involve, to some extent, the giving up of one’s rights, which is exactly what God wants from us. When we surrender our lives to him—at salvation and every day—we are declaring that we have given up our rights to live our own lives. Yes, we certainly have rights as sons and daughters of God—but we relinquish our “right” to control our own lives and live them for ourselves.
I am preaching this to myself probably more than anyone else who might read this. God has really been working with me on this over the past week and a half, thus the inspiration to write. ;) He started the process by asking me to let go of the tight hold I had on the hopes and dreams buried deep inside my heart, and then challenged me to be willing to surrender my time and reputation—everything—for Him, every day. God has also really been stretching me in the area of waiting for Him. Just because he plants desires in my heart and gives me a tiny glimpse of what He has planned for the future, does not mean that the future is now. And I can’t—and shouldn’t try to—box God in and try to tell Him how He needs to work in my life.
I can be a bit of a control freak at times, so this is often difficult for me (and I’m not using my personality as an excuse—far from it). I have often found myself .tricked into believing I am completely surrendered to Christ, only to find myself clinging tightly to small areas of my heart that I don’t want to relinquish control over. Typically, the control is motivated by fear. I’m afraid of what might happen if I release control. In reality, that’s ridiculous. Even in my short twenty-one years on this earth, I’ve already learned time and time again that God definitely knows better than I do how to run my life. Left on my own, I only mess things up. But God, in his grace, can take my messed-up life and do something beautiful with it, in it, and through it.
God has particularly been working with me on the day-to-day act of surrender. I’ve discovered that daily surrender is a very conscious decision. At least in my own life, it simply hasn’t been enough to just say that I’m surrendered to God and not deliberately re-surrender myself to him everyday. If I don’t, I find myself unconsciously taking back control. So for the past week and a half, each day has involved an act of surrender. Goodness knows I don’t have it down yet, but with God’s help, I’m working on it. And I’ve found that although surrendering is a difficult and often scary process, the rewards far outweigh the pain. I’m never as at peace as I am when I’m surrendered to God. I want my life to be fully surrendered to Him at all times and in every way.
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"May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer." Psalm 19:14